Since my last real haircut
The one where everyone oos and ahs
that cost over a hundred dollars.
Since my last real haircut
I was engaged and married,
Filled with the humidity of love.
Birthed a child and then another.
Heard her say 'I love you so much, mommy.'
Since my last real haircut
I moved to another country and started a new job in an old career.
My gifts exploited by others while filled with self-doubt.
Lost friendships to distance replaced with Likes and Shares
Since my last real haircut
A good friend and an aunt have died
Leaving patches of emptiness that one is supposed to just move beyond.
Since my last real haircut
I heard warning sirens and saw rockets repelled in the sky
Minutes later returning to building a sand castle.
Since my last real haircut
The world has declined
Paris is Columbine
Hope is Trumped
Since my last real haircut
I’ve struggled being a mom of two.
The sleep deprivation that one is supposed to just move beyond.
My last real haircut was for me.
This one was for a child with cancer.
Everything is so heavy, but I feel lighter.
Since my haircut.
